Lay down the numbers

A scar?

I have one on my chin and it's somewhat circular (and it's quite big) . Had it on my first grade I think? You would notice it if you look closer.

Age?

Frozen on my seventeenth year. 

How are you feeling?

I feel zombified. I've been doing acad-ralated bumfs these past few days and it drained me, just like a leech sucking the blood out of me. 

What did you do last night?
I downloaded some e-books again. I updated my tumblr account coz I feel bad it might go ancient.
The last person to hug you?
My mum? And our head pastor (He is like a dad to me, to us all.) I felt relieved after that. Been wasted physically and mentally, their hugs are a comfort to me.
Favourite word?
Eternal and Love (favourite words)
Opinion on homosexuality?
Well, I am not comfortable being with lesbians/ bisexual-girls/girls-who-prefer-girls. But I have friends who are homosexuals, as in queers and gays. I love them. However, ... UGH. This is a very sensitive issue for me.
What did you do last weekend?
Got to force myself to start my project in Deutsch. 
Three most important things in your life?
God (He is my reason for living)
Family (My pride and  my support)
and Friends (my encouragement and the spices of my life)
Last time you cried?
Hmm, Friday. October 15. Due to exhaustion, over-fatigue and annoying groupmates. Also, I became an owl for 40 hours.
The last text you received?
Form a friend saying a simple good morning. But I bet it's a group message. :D
What makes you feel better when you’re upset?
When I pray and talk to God. He is such a good listener and a great strength-supplier.
What you look for in a guy/girl
I want to meet a guy who loves God more than he loves me. 
What  are you worried about at the moment?
Nothing serious. (Just thinking if I would be able to do my sister's collage without distorting/messing it up.)
What did you have for breakfast?
PANCIT CANTON. Little bro cooked it for me. (Sometimes he is just so sweet.)
Ever had your heart broken?
Should I be honest? -.- Okay fine. Yeah, i guess. Once. You know, infatuation sucks. hahahaha
Countries you’ve been?
I've never been to any country (I don't have the luxury okay?) But in my dreams i've been traveling the world. :>
Last person you texted?
Irene (a college friend). I told her I only got 9 units during the 1st batchrun of online enlistment. :| I think my text goes like this  >> I only got 9 units! Blech. <<
Dumbest thing you have ever done?
You know, it's hard to point somthing in particular when you have a lot to enumerate. :D
Opinion on drugs/alcohol?
Gives nothing but a pain in the *ss. 
Last person to kiss you?
Today, my mum kissed me on the forehead. :D
Favourite book?
My Bible, His Word. 
Ever dated someone younger than you?
For the record, I've never dated anyone. 
Last person you saw?
(This question is pointless but I'll, nonetheless, answer it) My cousin. He keeps jumping from places to places here in the living room.
Do you love anyone?
Of course. I am loved that's why I ought to love. Wait. You mean romantically? I don't think so. :D
Who is your best friend?
God. (it may sound cliche but it's true. Better leave it this way.)
Where you live, and what you like/dislike about it
I live in a small but happy house. My church and my relatives are just around the corner so I am very pleased about it. 
How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
Five hours. 
The person you like?
Secret. :P (The last thing I have in mind is to put myself in a dire situation, so I better not spill it.)
Your opinion on dating your ex.
I have no experience to share. But if you want a general opinion, hmmm, askdhjakshskhksfksh! STOP FANTASIZING YOUR EX!! There's a reason why you didn't end up together. (No, I'm not mad.)
Ever kissed a stranger?
I am not a perv.
What you want to do with your future
I want to be a diplomat (ambassador would be a lot cooler though) and to be a missionary too. :D
Are you happy?
I am always happy. =))
Ever been in love?
I am always in love. <3
The meaning behind your url
It sounds cool and mysterious and weird.
A question of your own
Would you be able to finish your race of faith?

Challenge accepted.

Have you read more than 6 of these books? The BBC believes most people will have read only 6 of the 100 books listed here. Instructions: Copy this into your NOTES. Bold those books you've read in their entirety, italicize the ones you started but didn't finish or read an excerpt. Tag other book nerds. Tag me as well so I can see your responses!

1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen

2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien

3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte

4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling 

5 To Kill  a Mockingbird - Harper Lee

6 The Bible -

7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte

8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell

9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman 

10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens - 

11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott

12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy

13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller

14 Complete Works of Shakespeare

15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier

16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien

17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk

18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger 

19 The Time Traveler’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger 

20 Middlemarch - George Eliot

21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell

22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald 

24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy 

25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams

27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky 

28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck

29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll

30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame 

31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy

32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens

33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis 

34 Emma -Jane Austen 

35 Persuasion - Jane Austen

36 The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe - CS Lewis

37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini

38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres

39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden

40 Winnie the Pooh - A.A. Milne

41 Animal Farm - George Orwell

42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown

43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez

44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving

45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins

46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery 

47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy 

48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood 

49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding

50 Atonement - Ian McEwan

51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel  

52 Dune - Frank Herbert 

53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons

54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen

55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth

56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon

57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens - 

58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley

59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon

60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez 

61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck 

62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov

63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt

64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold

65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas

66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac 

67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy

68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding 

69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie 

70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville

71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens

72 Dracula - Bram Stoker

73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett

74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson

75 Ulysses - James Joyce

76 The Inferno - Dante

77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome

78 Germinal - Emile Zola

79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray

80 Possession - AS Byatt

81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens 

82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell

83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker

84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro

85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert

86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry

87 Charlotte’s Web - E.B. White

88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom

89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle

90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton

91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad

92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery 

93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks

94 Watership Down - Richard Adams

95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole

96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute

97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas

98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare

99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl

100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo-

It's been a long time.

It has been more than a month since I posted something of worth in this blog. I've been such a bummer lately, sleeping late trying to bug myself with some school stuffs I obviously hate doing. So here I am, taking the opportunity to type my memories out on what happened to me during those hibernating times. And of course, this is in no particular order (as always). 


- I attended my friend's debut party. It was crazy, fun and not to mention very... musical. (boo the description. I know.) I saw friends and schoolmates I haven't seen for almost two years. I saw my crush back in highschool (I do hope he won't get to see this coz if he does, i'll be damned.). 


- I got to take 2 tablets of Kremil S in span of seven hours. (Just to say, antacids should be taken once a day ONLY. My poor stomach!). Blessed enough I didn't suffer from gastric irritation. However, I got hyped and all that very night that my friends concluded it was because of those antacids. Of course they're joking. :))


- I got a a grade of 2.0 on my major's midterms. I didn't get depressed, just regretful that I have always been careless when answering an exam. But I know I would be able to redeem myself on the finals!


- Mein Laptop war kaputt. Nasira yung laptop ko nung birthday ni Papa. I got so pissed I couldn't help but cry. huhuhuhu. My papers and projects are all there! My e-books! My movies! My ever beloved Minesweeper!  But I got guilty and felt remorse having to feel and think that way. I got so trivial once again and I did hate myself for that. I failed God that time. But I didn't dwell much on that fact. I gathered myself up and prayed afterwards, asking for His forgiveness that I became such a traveling cynic. 


Lesson learned: DO NOT PREOCCUPY YOURSELF WITH PETTY AND INCONSEQUENTIAL THINGS THAT WON'T DO ANYTHING BUT TO PISS YOU HARDCORE!


Well, well, well. This is it for know. I have other things to do. Goodbye!

Fragments

Today, I want to be boundless. The fact that I won’t care even if the world sucks big time thrills me more than anything else in the world. No. I am neither being apathetic nor lethargic here.  If you were in my place, even you might not be able to explain it.

Today, I wouldn’t dare open the television. I would close my eyes so as not to provoke any bad aura. Then I would shut my ears, devoid of any human fumes, those endless seethes that seem to deaf me.

Today, I would try to forget my problems. I would lock them up in the deepest recesses of this fragile unconscious part of mine. Fastened.  Silenced.

Today, I wouldn’t read nor write. I would curb these imploring ideas; let them die in this hiatus I am letting myself to take.

Today, I wouldn’t dare think of passing any oral or written exams that I have to take. Let me remind myself that those craps won’t be able to define me. Not now. Not ever.

Today, I wouldn't cry, even a tear won't be shed. Let these emotions banish, fade like bubbles in thin air.

For once, I want to free myself from the world’s bondage. Being detached from this domain of norms and fixations was once my dream.

But I know even if I dare, these portions that I keep on pushing out of my life would still sneak their way through me. And no matter how I suppress it, they just won’t leave me. These imperfections, as long as I live, will always hold a fragment of me. 

Believe me. I'm touched.

Dear Sam,

I wrote you something good. I wrote you a letter on yellow paper, longhand. I followed the margins carefully, kept it tidy---as you like it tidy. I wrote it the way they taught us how to write letters in grade school, with the date and place and time on the upper right part of the page, except that I made sure I wouldn’t scare you with my grade schooler’s penmanship; not making the lower case letters look like screaming capital letters. I also made sure that my periods didn’t look like commas, and my commas didn’t look like drowning letter i’s as they usually do. I wrote it in class while my professor was plotting Foucault’s panopticon on the whiteboard. He drew it so badly I had to write something else. I wrote you something. And I think it was my best.

I wrote you of the day we talked about Hemingway lost at sea while eating the whole fish from Dampa the two of us couldn’t finish. I wrote you of us, that day we slow danced---my first slow dance ever---alone in my room as George sang Something for us on my player. I wrote you, in italics, how gracefully the street lights glide from your hands on your knees, to your arms, to your face every time I drive you home. I wrote you a letter which sang of feelings I’ve yet to tell anyone else. Feelings I’ve never written down. Feelings I only admitted to myself then. I wrote you something. And I think it was my best.

I folded it thrice, lengthwise, crosswise, then diagonally. I taped it under a desk, not mine, so I’d forget where I placed it. It’s there. Somewhere. I wrote you something, Sam, and yes, I think it was my best.

Let me try, now, to write that letter again. Remember the same words, use the same punctuations, work the same syntax, make the same sense, and hope it would tell the same. Let me fail once. Let me fail again. Let me fail again and again and again and again. Let every attempt be second best. On the day that you find that I’ve written my best, don’t tell me that you’ve read it. Tape the letter under a desk and tell me you lost it. And I’ll gladly try again.

Yours,

DLSP

(Love Letter Writing THIRD PLACE : Dino Pineda, 4th year CW, UP Writer's Club)

This is ohmigahd. What's not there to like love? It's amazing how people could express 

so much just by writing a few sentence. I just wish things would work out well for both of them. kyaaaaaa~